When Parents are Dying: Coping & Planning
Death is never a pleasant experience. As I watch my father slip slowly away, I try to come to terms with reality, but since no one in my family has ever learned how to cope with the cruel nature of...
View ArticleForget Marriage, She Wants a Baby… or Two… or Three
In 18 months, less than two years away, I’ll be turning 30. While 30 doesn’t feel old, it does send stabbing pangs into my head regarding my biological clock. With PCOS, it’s already ticking faster...
View ArticleI Hear My Biological Clock Ticking, Ring Ting Tingling Too…
So it happened. I turned 29 without much fanfare and now I’m already nearly a month into my last year before my 30s. Time just disappears, and I imagine I’ll be 40 in the blink of an eye. What is...
View ArticleWhat is the Ideal Age to Have Children?
So you want a baby? Do you want to shell out $250k over the next 18 years to support that child, or would you rather buy yourself a Ferrari. Ok, so probably most of us would prefer an addition to our...
View ArticleThere’s Logic to this Depression
I hate making every other post about my mental health situation (you don’t believe me, do you?), but everything seems to tie back to that these days. Some spans of time are better than others, but...
View ArticleMotherhood Costs Women $250,000
This post is about being a modern working woman and the challenges that go into motherhood versus deciding not to have children. It was inspired by a dinner I had tonight with four women in their 40s...
View ArticleFocus, Time, and the Brevity of Life
There isn’t a day that goes by when I lack a sense of overwhelm and impending doom. That’s just my style. A lot of this is knotted up in a series of paranoid internal monologues that repeat ad nausem...
View ArticleThinking about motherhood a lot lately…
It’s not just that most of my friends have children that is on my mind lately – it’s that their children are very quickly growing up. I didn’t feel so behind with my friends having tiny babies that...
View ArticleThat Time When You Realize You’re Almost 32…
Shit. I’m less than 6 months to 32. That’s not quite old but it certainly not young. And while I’ve saved up a decently sizable portfolio of investments over the course of my 31 and a half years, every...
View ArticleDo I Choose to be Stressed?
A friend of mine, a stay-at-home mother who is married to an engineer who is likely earning over $200k a year, has told me to stop making choices that make me so stressed. I should go to a mindfulness...
View ArticlePlanning for The Odds of Infertility
I apologize in advance for the incoming froth of baby posts, but in advance of my 33rd birthday without so much as trying to get pregnant yet, I’ve got DNA salvation on my mind – in other words, my...
View ArticleWhat they don’t tell you in sex ed about getting pregnant…
Based on my sexual education classes in school, my understanding was that should I so much as stand too close to a man’s nether bits I could get pregnant. The class was clearly designed to ensure we...
View ArticlePutting My Fertility on Ice – Seriously Considering Egg Freezing
When I was 15, my gynecologist told me to get pregnant by the time I’m 30 and not to worry about my irregular cycles. I later found out these irregular cycles were caused by PCOS. I went through my...
View ArticleHow Much Will it Cost to Have a Child: The Cost of PCOS-Caused Infertility
*Warning – TMI post. If talk about fertility freaks you out, skip this one. He sat, staring at me inquisitively, as if he had never seen a 33 year old before – at least one asking about embryo...
View ArticleUpdated Quote on Infertility Treatment Costs Cycle I & Egg Freezing
Finally talked to the infertility pricing specialist today to get the down low on all the costs involved with treatments. The good news is that the basic first cycle (3 months) is “just” $1250 plus...
View ArticleHere’s To Getting Pregnant in 2017
There will be plenty of TMI posts this year, so if you prefer to avoid reading about infertility and all the fun that goes along with trying to get pregnant when your body doesn’t work properly, quit...
View ArticleHappy New Year: Embracing Myself as Myself
Quite randomly I ended up taking a neuropsychological screening this week. Well, it wasn’t entirely random. I was attempting to find a therapist (psychologist, psychiatrist, MFT, social worker, what...
View ArticleInfertility: Another Test, Another Thousand Dollars
$750. That’s the cost of just one more test which is needed to start the process of attempting to have a child. That’s on top of $400 for the initial ultrasound and about $500 for the bloodwork and...
View ArticleNot Pregnant.
It’s that time. Time to get serious about having kids. All the tests have been run and so far we’ve found I don’t ovulate on my own and I have a minor case of hemophilia C (no big deal, mostly it’s...
View ArticleFacing the costs of IVF… how are we going to afford this?
Yes, I can sell a bunch of stock to try to have a baby. I’d prefer not to. I’d prefer to keep that money for all the costs that come after having a baby and maybe one day buying a house. But, instead,...
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